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Cee’s Foto Fun – The Letter E

This week is Letter E – Needs to have two E’s in the topic word (needle, elephant, geese, peek, jeep, eye, etc.).  For my photo subject, I chose  ‘Weeds’. A weed is any wild plant that grows in unwanted areas. We do have a lot of weeds in our yard but some like the ones below add a natural beauty. So maybe they aren’t really weeds after all.  

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I am not sure what the one above is; below is the dandelion weed. Every child’s favorite.

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© Susan Spaulding

The next one is the remains of Black Eye Susan’s. They bloomed in late summer but are starting to die now.

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© Susan Spaulding

This one is called White Prairie Aster

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This one is a type of foxtail.

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Posted in Miscellaneous

Writer’s Block

An early Halloween treat

My Million Words

rusty-gate‘The gate remained shut for hundreds of years. No one knew what was on the other side. No one dared find out.’

Rusty combed his brain for the next line but nothing came. He loathed 10th grade creative writing with its useless themes. Like this week – Fanciful Fiction. What rubbish! Bored, Rusty peered out his bedroom window and notice the iron gate leading to a vacant lot across the street. Strange I have never noticed it before, thought Rusty. Grabbing a jacket, he darted out for a closer look.

The uninviting gate stood between concrete walls; the words Keep Out painted in bold, red letters. Along the top, rusted spikes dared intruders to climb over. Rusty was leaving when he noticed the open lock. He pushed hard and met resistance, as if blocked on the other side. One last push created an opening wide enough for Rusty to…

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Old Crow

This is something I posted on my sister-site. I thought I would share with a different group. I hope you like it

My Million Words

Kika and his brother Hakan were walking through the woods in search of blueberries for Grandmother’s pie. Across the stream, Hakan noticed a bush ripe with berries.

“There are enough berries for two pies on that bush,” said Hakan, stepping into the stream.

In the tree above sat Old Crow, cawing “Danger, Danger.” Hearing the warning, Kika pleaded with his brother to return. “Do you not hear Old Crow?” he asked.

“That old bird is a trickster. He wants the berries for himself.”

Old Crow persisted with each step Hakan took, but the berries were too inviting for Hakan to return. When Hakan safely reached the other shore, he turned to Old Crow and laughed.

“Maybe I will leave a berry or two for your dinner.” He then filled his basket with the juicy berries.

By now Hakan was hungry and it would be hours before Grandmother baked the pie…

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Posted in Just what I think, Photography

Unanswered Question

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photo credit: Susan Spaulding

I wonder who I would be if I were not someone’s wife, mother, sister, friend, employee? Who am I, in the purest sense?

These were questions Eve asked herself one quiet morning as she sipped coffee from a mug with the words World’s Greatest Mom barely visible from the many cycles in the dishwasher.

She listened for an answer.

She heard the ticking clock on the mantel and the silent hum of the refrigerator.

With a heavy sigh, Eve went upstairs and woke her children up for school.

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This story was also posted on my sister blog My Million Words.  

Here, I ask the questions philosophically… who are we when we remove the masks from the roles we play?

There, it is just a flash fiction.

Take your pick.

 

 

Posted in 30 Day Healthy Eating Challenge

Dearest Food

Inspiration for this post comes from 30 Day Emotional Eating Journal Challenge

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Today’s challenge is to write a letter describing my relationship with food.  We have been together for a long time, a lifetime in fact. I want you to know how important you are to me. After all, without you, I would literally die. But you are more than just mere substance, a means to survival. You are a crutch that keeps me from dealing with stress and upsets. You fill me up so that I don’t have to feel empty inside.

I have to say, you are a loyal friend. You are always there for me when I am anxious or bored, frightened or worried. I never have to face darkness alone.

You are also there during celebrations and good times. No matter what emotion I might be feeling, you are there. Through good times and bad.

Do you know how needy I am? When I travel on a plane, I am afraid that if there are delays and I might go hungry. I  always make sure I eat when I get a chance, just in case. Even at bedtime, I feel the need to eat just a little something to get me through the night.

And let’s face it, you are more tempting and alluring when you are full of calories.

I am getting older and my physical need for food is much less than when I was young. Yet my desire for you has not diminished with age. And that is the problem.

Which is why I have to be strong and learn to resist your temptations. I want to enjoy you, not covet you. We will always be companions until the end of my days, but our relationship needs to change.  The healthier I am the longer our relationship will last. And that is best for both of us.

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Day 2 – Discovering What I Want

David

Inspiration for this post comes from 30 Day Emotional Eating Journal Challenge

What do I want in life? How do I make sure I get it?

Michelangelo was once asked about the difficulties of carving his masterpiece statute David.

“It is easy. You just chip away the stone that doesn’t look like David.”

That was how I approached this question. Michelangelo is describing vision and I am one who has a difficult time dealing in the abstract. I never had a clear path of what I wanted. I fell into my career, I followed the well-worn path of women in my generation (marriage, children).  Even now, what I want is a vague sort-of longing of what I think will make me happy. As I pondered this question, however, my vision clarified just a bit and I was able to narrow my desire down into a few simple words: What I want is liberation from the restrictions that keep me from enjoying life, things like the following:

  • Too much worry, especially over things I cannot control
  • Feeling responsible for things that don’t belong to me. (Believe me, there are days I wonder how the world continues to spin on its axis without my help)
  • Too much drama, especially over unimportant things in life (at least unimportant to me)

What I want is freedom to do the things that are enjoyable and the start of that is good health.

This is really what the 30-day challenge is all about. Being healthy is the key to all achieving all that I want in life. When I am not feeling my best, when I am tired, achy, moody, or bitchy, I worry more about little things and drama seeps in. I don’t enjoy life because I am more irritable. I don’t do as much because it is too much of an effort. Unless I do something about it now, it will only get worse and be more difficult to change course later.

How do I liberate myself so I can get what I want from life? Here are my ideas:

  • Gradually increase the amount of exercise I get each day. No going from couch to 5K for me, but in time, a 5K can be in my future.
  • Make better food selections. I’m not starting a diet just yet because if I say the “D-word” too loudly, my inner-demons will take over and throw a chocolate craving on me. For now, it is about making better food choices and cutting back on snacking.
  • Don’t worry, be happy. Or at least try to have a better mental attitude. Being mindful of what I am grateful for is a good way to start
  • Experience new things. The genius of Leonardo di Vinci was his eagerness to try new things. The way to fully appreciate life is a willingness to step out of the shadows into the light, to risk an occasional disappointment in the hopes of expecting something grand
  • Keep learning as this keeps the mind young.
  • Get out of my own head. Stop thinking so much about things that have nothing to do with what is going on right now. Journaling helps me process all that stuff that gets in the way of living for the moment.
  • Dream big. The barriers in life are only tall when our dreams are small. I think about the things I have achieved in the past, some that seemed impossible at the time, and I realize there is no dream too big and no wish too wild.

At some point this need to be actionable, but for now it is a good goal list. This journey has only just started.

 

 

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Day 1 – Barriers to Weight Loss

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAWhat is your biggest barrier to weight loss, and why?

I am my  barrier to weight loss (and good health). As soon as I set (any)  goal, every ounce of my being rebels. I literally see myself caving in to self-doubt and self-control. It has nothing to do with belief in my ability to do this. I have done this before, I know the drill. But for some reason, this time, I am really struggling with momentum.  I hope through journaling I will discover exactly what it is that is standing in my way.

I know this won’t be easy (it wasn’t easy the first time), but it is not impossible. And there are challenges:

  • Planning around the family and their eating preferences
  • Preparing health meals
  • Rearranging my schedule to find time to go to the gym several times a week
  • Substituting crappy food with better food choices
  • Fighting the urge to give into temptation (whether it is food or laziness)
  • Finding better ways to deal with day-to-day stress

The primary reason all of these challenges are so “challenging” is that I don’t put myself first. Don’t get me wrong, I can be very selfish, but not about the right things. Most women, at least the older ones, spend their energy on everyone else’s needs. When it comes to our own needs, we are too tired to even care. Our selfishness comes out in other, more destructive ways, such as bad eating habits and lack of exercise.

It comes down to priorities and my number one priority should be my own health. If I am not healthy, nothing else really matters because my health affects my family, my finances, and my future. Doing everything in my power to be healthy is not a selfish act and I need to do whatever it takes to get healthy.

It’s that simple

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Inspiration for this post comes from 30 Day Emotional Eating Journal Challenge