What is your biggest barrier to weight loss, and why?
I am my barrier to weight loss (and good health). As soon as I set (any) goal, every ounce of my being rebels. I literally see myself caving in to self-doubt and self-control. It has nothing to do with belief in my ability to do this. I have done this before, I know the drill. But for some reason, this time, I am really struggling with momentum. I hope through journaling I will discover exactly what it is that is standing in my way.
I know this won’t be easy (it wasn’t easy the first time), but it is not impossible. And there are challenges:
Planning around the family and their eating preferences
Preparing health meals
Rearranging my schedule to find time to go to the gym several times a week
Substituting crappy food with better food choices
Fighting the urge to give into temptation (whether it is food or laziness)
Finding better ways to deal with day-to-day stress
The primary reason all of these challenges are so “challenging” is that I don’t put myself first. Don’t get me wrong, I can be very selfish, but not about the right things. Most women, at least the older ones, spend their energy on everyone else’s needs. When it comes to our own needs, we are too tired to even care. Our selfishness comes out in other, more destructive ways, such as bad eating habits and lack of exercise.
It comes down to priorities and my number one priority should be my own health. If I am not healthy, nothing else really matters because my health affects my family, my finances, and my future. Doing everything in my power to be healthy is not a selfish act and I need to do whatever it takes to get healthy.
She told him the Merchant of Venice was her favorite Shakespearean play and to impress her, The Doctor decided to take his new companion to the very first performance at the court of King James. From the vast wardrobe aboard the Tardis, they chose elegant garb befitting of a royal performance. A perfect plan. Until they stepped out the door.
Something had gone terribly wrong.
The vast, sandy beach before them was dotted with large, multi-colored umbrellas. To the right, a long pier jetting out over a vast blue ocean. And to the left…
“Doctor… this does not look like 17th century London”
To the left stood a pot-bellied man wearing barely anything at all.
“A little overdressed wouldn’t you say.”
The man stood in front of a small shack, advertised by a large yellow surfboard with the words “Venice Beach – Nudity Preferred.” Noticing the man’s watch, the Doctor asked for the time. Two-oh-Five in the afternoon, or in military time, 16:05. A big mistake indeed.
Trying to make light of the situation, the Doctor asked his companion if she wanted to make the best of the situation. Her reaction told him it was time to look for a new companion.
My apologies to Doctor Who and really good fan fiction.
Several months ago I found out I had a slightly elevated A1C. This is a pre-diabetes indicator and one that is easily reversed with diet and exercise. I have resisted doing anything about it, always telling myself I will seriously start eating better and exercising “tomorrow” or “next week.” That was a lot of “tomorrows” ago.
Now I am ready.
Nothing changed except my attitude. I found on Pinterest several pins for “30 Day Emotional Eating.” I’m sure some of my eating is emotional, but mostly it is bad habits and laziness. My life is complicated, stressful, fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants crazy at times. I rarely plan my meals, I am too tired at the end of the day to make dinner decisions, and I hate grocery shopping. I am not a great cook and my family if finicky, so we end up eating the same things over and over (a lot of that is fast-food). This is a great excuses for not putting in the time and energy into healthy eating. It is a poor excuse for avoiding diabetes and heart conditions.
Normally, I would not blog about something so personal (and being overweight is VERY personal). But I also need accountability, so I am swallowing my pride. For the next 30 days, I will be journaling/blogging about journey toward healthy eating , exercise, and weight loss using journaling prompts inspired by 30 Day Emotional Eating Journal Challenge
I will do other things as well. Whatever it takes.